Strange dreams

I had a very strange dream last night that I am afraid to even write down but that I feel I must , mostly just because I am well versed in dream archives and I have read the Dream Keeper and - well- I understand what Burroughs would do if he were me , at least the old Burroughs. I have also read Kafkas Chronicle. So I know what Kafka would do too (which is he woud also write the dream). Mauser. Swift. Stern. Everyone would. But still I am afraid because it was so shockinf to me and so strange and perhaps so revelatory. Although I'm not sure it will be for you. For you it might meant nothing . I've no idea.

At any rate , it was fast and quick and went like this (hopefully I can describe it well and in scholarly Ivy League terms): I was in some sort of very widespread jungle area, it seemed (I did not see my body or my hands or my arms or legs etc) and I was looking off , initially, at a rather large band of what were either chimpanzees, or bonobos, or gorillas. I've no idea. Monkeys of some type with black fur and they were standing like monkeys do. And then the next thing I knew I saw someone - I do not know who--- start trying to hand the monkeys fire of some kind ...almosr as though they were trying to see if the monkeys could figure out what to do with it. And of course all that happened the first few times that these monkeys got "handed" this fire - by whoever handed t to them (scientists in lab coats?)--- was that the monkeys , more often than not it seemed to I, accidentally lit on fire thrmselves, and then would start shrieking , and panic would ensue. I vividly recollect being terrified by this, and I feel I was in the distance as I watched...mortified to see the way these dumb monkeys just could not figure out how to control the flame. Mortified to think that I as a homo sapien was in fact related to them.

But then of course at some point the monkeys somehow finally got control of the fire  (that was when I woke up back here on the very bed I'm writing this on now) and then I remember being even more shaken ..and scared...because I woke up , I tell you, with the idea in my head that I had almost been given access to watching the first VHS cassette tape of mankinds beginnings or some such thing. As though the designers of the software of this life and this unusually bizarre planet for some reason chose to give me access to watching the first experiments they performed on their early "robots", their early "machines" aka the monkeys. And I suppose this thought terrified me really because well.....

I don't even want to get into it really. I already feel afraid again.