I feel like I said "I wish I could join you but who knows maybe today is the day I've got to die". A few moments later I looked behind me -- still lying down on my bed-- and it was suddenly dark, nighttime. I saw the lights of an enormous , and I mean really enormous , oncoming tractor trailer plowing straight towards me.
I thought oh no! Oh no! It is my death and it's coming to me right now..why didn't I get off this fucking bed and follow that person into the park to leave for the virtual world? I continued to watch the massive truck approach with its lights blaring, and then it whizzed right past the big bed, with its horn blasting off. It was like I was just a person standing there to it, that it had nearly hit, rather than a perpsn lying on a bed in the midle of traffic. I felt like the truck should have made a bigger deal of me somehow. I also remember feeling like the other cars all passing around me on every side should have made a bigger deal of me just lying on my bed there in the middle of traffic . But it was like no one could see me. Except that huge truck that almost killed me and swerved out of the way by a hair ....
When the truck passed you could feel it of course, just like you can when you're on the highway walking and one breezes by you. I felt the ground underneath the bed shake,I felt a huge gust of wind, I was mortified and shaking. I remember looking around for a moment and feeling I almost even recognized the road...felt like I was directly under the traffic lights...I looked out and thought I saw more cars coming. Again I had the thought : "i gotta get off this bed otherwise I'm gonna die."
Then a moment later I awoke to write this. Lying in bed....
I guess I'm sort of curious why virtual reality was mentioned in the dream. I'll admit I've never had that before and it's strange because, of course, just yesterday I was watching a few videos of Jaron Lanier, the so called father of virtual reality. This is all kind of spooky ...are the Gods trying to tell me that I am in a virtual reality already or perhaps soon will be in one? I am not sure I would want to be aware I was in one if I was, nor am I entirely certain that I would purposely enter in one , like the person in the dream said he was going off to do. I am also kind of wondering about the symbolism of the big tractor trailer in the dream. I am not sure how many dreams I've had with big trucks like that in them. Usually my dreams take place in houses, on beaches, forests, rooms, etc. Now that I'm thinking of it I don't remember my last dream before this one. Also just for posterity purposes, this was a complete wake up dream, meaning that I should have slept for about 4 more hours but it was so scary that I woke up and then couldn't fall asleep and started to going about my day....
I have always been one of those types of people who believe adamantly that if I die in a dream it will mean I also die here, in this so called "reality". I have this idea that dreams are maybe like mini video game challenges we have, presumably every single night, and you have to maybe earn your way into your next morning, by accomplishing things in the dream realm. Maybe last night I came close to dying in the dream realm? Maybe it's the case that I am not just sort of down on my luck in reality, I'm also down on my luck in dreams too. My character , at least...the avatar I'm controlling. He's lost power! I am on my death bed in the dream world. What can save me? This all seems so ominous....
With my powers of the mighty pen I shall CUT and HACK my way out of death in the dream realm. Tonight when I sleep I will do battle there won't I? No time to sleep in dreams is probably the moral here. So when I sleep tonight and I reawaken there I will leap off that bed and find the first weapon I can. A nice submachine gun should do the trick....get me to manana....
So I can wake up here again...
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