Good characters

Characters, Searching For them:

characters are very hard to come by,
good ones at least,
especially in a society like this
that is hell bent on
marginalizing and casting off
so many good ones.

i am finding that it is
really very hard
for me to Zero in on certain good
characters
because society tells me that, well,
y'know
i should not be bothered with them.

society , man, it has this
one very particular idea
of who or what is a Good character
and then it is sort of ....everyone else
be damned.

Unfortunately it seems i have never
met the sort of
characters
that society would like me to meet.
everyone i have come into contact with
throughout my life---
they're all absolute weirdos,
as far as
literature
and the page
is concerned.

I do not know any Jason Bourne
or Lee Child
characters,
i do not know any Harry Potters
or Gwyneth Paltrows,
i do not know
any
Sin City cast members
or Willy Wonkas
or Charlie Wonkas
or even Michael Corleones
and yet...and yet...and yet...and yet....

when i sit down here
to write,
i must conjure them
and conjure them
and conjure them,
or else y'all start
getting mad @ me....

well it's OK i guess,
i don't mind,
i like Jason Bourne as much as
all the rest of you ....

it's just that sometimes i sit
and i get to thinking:
wouldn't it be nice
if i could just paint
someone
utterly
typical
for once?
wouldn't it
really
be
something?

but it will never happen.